Days 20 - 22 (yikes)

What I did:

Well, I figured I would post yesterday to cover Saturday and Easter Sunday, because I sure wasn't going to spend time at the computer on Easter! Yesterday came and went with a big "work day" for me, and a meeting last night that went a little late. After the meeting, it took a while to get the little one to settle in and go to bed, at which point, I crashed into bed myself.

Saturday was spent getting ready for Easter, and Easter Sunday was full and fun - having the egg hunt, going to breakfast, church, climbing a mountain (or at least part of it) and coming home to get ready for the week. Somehow, the house got that "lived in" look in record time! How does that happen so quickly?

Yesterday (Monday), I worked on spot treating the living room carpet, catching up on laundry (still not there, yet), working outside for a while, putting away the last of the winter decorations and replacing them with spring items, getting supper, getting ready for the meeting, going to the meeting, and then finally going to bed. I did all of this without making my bed in the morning!

What I learned:

I'm pretty much back to square one with the whole experiment. I need to get my house in order again today - things like making the bed, catching up on laundry, etc. I'm not discouraged, though. I feel as though I have squandered the first 1/3 of this journey I have embarked on, by not giving everything one hundred percent effort, yet I know it's an experiment, and I want to really explore what I'm learning throughout this miniature model of "real life". Do I want to make real, lasting changes? Yes, I do! Pretending I'm perfect in all of my endeavors is not realistic though, and doesn't teach me anything.

I'm learning that I need to keep on keeping on - get back in the saddle, and ride on! I almost didn't post today because I have kind of been stuffing a few days into each post, lately, and I nearly let myself give up and delete the blog. What purpose would this have served? For one thing, it would have only convinced me more that I'm simply a person who doesn't follow through - so why attempt anything if I know I won't complete it, etc... That kind of negative thinking needs to go! For another thing, I would have been off the hook for the next 30-something days, without making myself accountable to continue trying and changing.

Even though I have danced around the issue this past week and lost my zeal, so to speak, I am more encouraged than ever that I can complete my experiment and see real changes. Why in the world would I think so after such a wishy-washy week? Because I'm still here! I'm not giving up. I'm not listening to the old voices in my head that tell my I'm destined for a life of shortcomings and unfulfilled goals. I know that just the fact that I sat back down to this blog and posted today, that I'm still in the game!

Thought for the day..."Failure is not whether we're knocked down. It's whether we stay down."

Until Tomorrow~~~Elizabeth