Day 46

What I did:

Yesterday was spent working and also going to Shelli's house to help her with some housework. I enjoyed the impromptu phone call from her telling me she was on her way to my home to pick me up. I don't see her as much as I used to, so it's always refreshing to have that spontaneity once in a while.


Because everything was ship-shape for the photo shoot on Monday, I did some general picking up around the house yesterday and was happy with the progress.

I had some time to talk with my client while at work, as well. She has been having a tough time with some things that have been going on in her own world and needed a friend to talk to. I was able to listen and encourage her here and there. I am constantly reminded to listen more than I talk. Maybe that's why I like to blog...it's a great avenue for completing a thought without the risk of interrupting anyone :)

What I learned:

I also have a lot of "soul searching" going on inside. Somehow, through this experiment time frame, I am feeling a strong urge to help and encourage others as a way of life - a ministry. My past is fraught with unfinished ideas, shortcomings and even down right bad choices and rotten attitudes which caused me and those around me a world of hurt. I'm caught in the trap of wondering whether my past has forever ruined any hope of a future that is victorious and dedicated to ministering to others. Even as I write this, I know that I know that I know - that the fundamental message of Jesus and the cross is that He has the power to blot out our sin, to remember them no more and to give us His own righteousness! Maybe I am struggling so much because I'm afraid people won't take me seriously, or even that I'm missing some huge requirement about ministering to others - that there really is a point of no return. I have to remind myself to go back to God's Word - "...But where sin increased, grace increased all the more" Romans 5:20 I know in my heart there is no place where God can not meet us and redeem us. IF I know that, I have to share that message with others! In this evil world, there is hope - even for those of us who have fallen down so many times! I guess I really did know the answer to my question, after all!

Until Tomorrow~~~Elizabeth