Day 60

What I did:

Yes, yesterday was the last day of my experiment. I wish I could say my head hit the pillow knowing I was now perfect in every way. NOT. I went to work as usual, lending a listening ear to what was going on in my client's life, then decided the kids could use some home made beef stew for supper. It did seem to be what the doctor ordered, even with Shelli's friend coming over to bring some home to her house. As she walked out of the house, the friend said, "Thanks, Ma!". There is no greater feeling in the world to me than to have those little moments of happy expression shared in my life. Yes, the day that I have been counting down to seemed a little mundane after all the fanfare I thought it would bring, but the peaceful sense in my heart that 'all is well' was the real story yesterday.

I also took some real time yesterday to write my thoughts down to share at my foster sister's funeral tomorrow. I believe her life and her own words cut right to the chase on what really matters. I want to share more of that when I sum up this whole experience.

I didn't write any more on my book because it seemed like emotional overload yesterday, with my client expressing her own joys and concerns and also reading and writing about Annie's life as I continued to miss her. I did touch base with two of my other sisters on the phone, and it was so good to know that we all still share that common bond of love that was instilled in us as children.

What I learned:

Well, since I officially ended my experiment yesterday, I learned that I can celebrate the little things - the things that actually stuck along the way. Things like kindness and quiet time spent with my little girl at the end of each day. Praying to a God who is really there, and realizing that my devotional time is not just for my own benefit, but also brings my Savior joy when I purposefully go into His presence to praise Him. I learned that life is just better when I reach out, and I got to know some people a little better through this blog, even as I developed relationships with some of you that I had never really thought about or considered before. I learned that I could have done better. I also learned that nobody's perfect.

So that's my experiment. Not a huge Grand Finale, but just another day, in some sense. I will wrap it all up on Monday, but my family just came through the door, and I want to go give them each a hug :)

Until Monday~~~Elizabeth