Day 9

What I did:

Yesterday started out great! I was able to jog for most of my morning exercise, and felt much stronger. I had time to focus and pray during my run, instead of just concentrating on sucking in as much air as possible without fainting :) After my jog, I walked to the grocery store to purchase items for supper. I came home, went through the house and cleaned (even cleaned out the fridge) and ate only healthy food, including a spinach salad with new dressing and star fruit. I got a call back on the census job and set up a test date. Things couldn't have been better.

After supper, I put the little one to bed after reading her a story. I came up with a good idea to help her as she learns to read. I let her read me a "story" - one of her reading books from school - and then I read her a story, asking her to pick out one word from each page. ("Find the word 'ran' on this page.") Then, after completing the supper dishes, I sat down to watch 'The Biggest Loser' on-demand, and got myself a small bowl of ice cream. It never fails - I watch that show, and I immediately want to pig out! Why?! It didn't seem like enough ice cream, so I went back for more. I kept eating, and went to my room for bed feeling like I had wasted the entire day!

Once in bed, I had my devotional time and then read some drivel, because I didn't have anything else to read that interested me. I gave up early and turned off the light where I laid in bed awake for a long time.

What I learned:

Yesterday I learned that I have to keep vigilant all day long and not allow myself to get lulled into the mid day blahs. Today, in looking back on yesterday, I realized that I did do a whole lot "right" in addition to the evening's not so good indulgences. I want to learn the lesson that it's not usually "all or nothing" in life. Why allow myself to just completely quit trying to do anything good because I'm not perfect? I believe those people who have the greatest successes in life are the ones that see themselves falling short of their own expectations, and keep on keeping on anyway. At what point in life did any of us learn that the lack of perfection in our lives is equivalent to utter failure? We need to see it for what it is - today, I accomplished these goals for myself, and tomorrow (or next time the occasion arises) I will work harder to accomplish the others. It's not the end of the world. Giving up is the only failure!

Until Tomorrow~~~Elizabeth