Days 14, 15

What I did:

I neglected to post for the first day since starting this blog, and now have to play "catch up". My mornings have been going pretty well, since I have been helping my daughter with all the necessary paperwork needed to begin college. This means I have extra grandbaby time, as well, and the whole family has really pitched in quite a bit. All in all, the mornings begin well by already having the lunches made, the floors washed, the clothes laid out, and we're off and running. Today I went to work, which I really love. Not only do I get to help out someone who can really benefit from someone else pitching in, it's just an all around good feeling to try to brainstorm and even chit chat about the past weekend apart.

My failings...hmmm. I haven't bothered exercising - too wet and cold outside. Also, my "inner life" is one of chaos. The more things change, the more they stay the same. I have been allowing myself to succumb to sheer terror at not knowing what tomorrow will bring. I love my family dearly. I am just really missing the mark when it comes to peace. Maybe I should meditate on the verse, "THOU will keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on THEE. Because he trusts in THEE". I see what's needed in my life to give my children the basics - a home/food - and I just don't have it. I also see a child of mine who is doing exceptionally well at his Christian School, and my heart yearns for him to be able to just stop. Stop and settle in. Graduate. Keep friends. He has been so adrift with my poor choices. Over five schools in under five years. I want to make the right choice for him - yet I see no choices directly before me. I can cheer on the older two as they seek to make improvements. I can whisper salty kiss/promises on my little one's face that she will not have to suffer from any of my future, Godless indecision's.

What I've learned:

God has a plan. GOD has a PLAN. God Loves my kids more than I ever could. GOD HAS A PLAN.

Until Tomorrow~~~Elizabeth